Below are the 16 most recent journal entries recorded in who?'s LiveJournal:

Monday, September 30th, 2002
6:53 pm	college its beginning to get to me, each time i leave it gets harder and harder... i love you carlene wherever ya are now. im gonna go take a nap before we all go out to dinner for my birthday... i dont think anyone knows this name or reads it anyways, peace. Current Mood: sad (Comment on this)
Wednesday, June 26th, 2002
7:14 pm	54% bastard! 30% of which is Tard The worldwide average is 44% bastard. How others compare: 2% (same as you) 21% (more bastard than you) 77% (less bastard than you) (Comment on this)
7:03 pm	64% lazy people lazier than you (24%) people just as lazy as you (2%) people less lazy than you (73%) (Comment on this)
6:56 pm	hmmm Congrats! In your life, you'll have sex with 10 people! And you'll first have sex at age 21, in the backseat of a car. The info on your 10 future sex partner(s): 10 of them will be female 0 of them will be male And you will actually love 2 of them! In addition, you'll consider sleeping with a prostitute. (Comment on this)
Thursday, June 20th, 2002
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Wednesday, June 19th, 2002
3:10 pm	You are 30% evil! [?] You're still on the good side of 50%, but you're gaining on it. You're not as good as you should be, but you're good ALMOST all of the time. There's only an occasional time when evil takes over you, but when it does... </p></center> You're LUST! Sex, sex, sex! It's all you think about! You're not opposed to having more than one boy/girlfriend, and you're very flirtatious. You're represented by the color blue. (Comment on this)
12:57 am	dont worry guys... only 2 more months..... Current Mood: tired (6 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, June 3rd, 2002
7:43 am	"you shall see" (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, May 30th, 2002
1:10 pm	things just keep gettin better well i rear ended someone today, my car is fucked, costs more to fix than its worth probly, parents probly wont let me drive cuz insurance is too high, well im gonna go try to find something to do, bye Current Mood: scared (Comment on this)
Wednesday, May 22nd, 2002
7:27 pm	well... i just found out that she doesnt wanna be with me cuz im not like i was a week ago, meaning im kinda depressed now cuz of everything thats going on. so yay, she doesnt wanna be with me when im depressed, even though i love her to death (which i shouldnt say anymore cuz we arent together and it probly pisses her off or somethin) and miss kissing and holding her, and getting to do that would probly cheer me up quite a bit, but im beginning to wonder about things, like her true feelings for me. i guess im a bad person or something for being depressed and crying about my gramma dying and going senile and losing all my friends and my girlfriend and possibly not graduating on time and not having a job getting bitched at endlessly by my parents and realizing my real dad doesnt talk to me anymore and i dont see him and my moms best friend just died and shes all sad and its hard to see her like that. i dont know, i guess im just a pussy and it all gets to me. and im even more of a pussy cuz everytime im with her i want to kiss her especially if i look into her eyes. well im gonna go take a nap. i dont know if she will ever read this or not, but im sorry for me being so down lately i cant really help it... and i will cherish those times we spent together watching movies and cuddling and everything else, for the rest of my life. and if that sounds corny, well thats just me i guess. if u ever wanna do that again, id be more than happy, but i understand that u probly dont so ill just keep dreaming. i love you. Current Mood: melancholy (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, May 21st, 2002
2:32 pm	everything sucks life is hell id rather just say goodbye, farewell Current Mood: take a guess (Comment on this)
Monday, May 20th, 2002
11:36 pm	sweet well today one of my mom's best friends died of cancer... gotta love getting a call from your mom crying... things just keep gettin better, on the upside joe called and we are cool again...and things might start getting better with "her" again, except shes really really sick and i didnt really get to talk to her today much and i hope she gets better. i was gonna bring her flowers today but when i called she didnt answer the phone so i dont think she was even home. plus ive done that before so it just wouldnt be as good i dunno. im not good at showing people how much i care and love them. alright well this is starting to ramble, im gonna go to bed, try calling her again to see how shes doin, but she hasnt answered the last 3 times. peace Current Mood: sad (Comment on this)
Sunday, May 19th, 2002
6:42 pm	life sucks right now. it seems like everything that could possibly go wrong, is. like the stuff i said in my last entry, today i realized some more stuff. my gramma is over 90 years old and is getting EXTREMELY weird and has to hold my arm when she walks (which is slowed down to a crawling pace...), and she is just losing it. i dont know how much longer shes gonna be around and it really really scares me. shes one of the few that sincerely love me andi can tell. and if i lose her soon, i dont know if im gonna be able to take all this anymore. i cant take it anymore right now and typing and my eyes and face are soaked right now im gonna go lay down. bye Current Mood: depressedscaredregrettinglife (Comment on this)
Saturday, May 18th, 2002
5:56 pm	well i just got off the phone with her, and cant stop crying, i am fcuking pathetic. she means the world to me and my life was just fine and perfect a week ago and i couldnt have been any happier, and now its gone. all my guy friends dont like me and i dont like them and we dont talk anymore or hang out... my family is fighting with me... i graduate in 3 weeks and in 3 months i probly wont ever see half of my friends ever again... just broke up with my girlfriend yesterday.... dont have a job and am going broke and my parents keep yelling at me to get a job... im doing horrible in school and might not graduate cuz i might not pass psychology... what else can go wrong? being friends with her is going to be hard for me, not cuz i wouldnt want to be because she is everything to me and not being friends would kill me, but i dont think i will be able to look into her eyes again, this is gonna sound corny but thenagain, no ones gonna read it so whatever, but ahhhhh shes so beautiful and i cant look into those eyes without wanting to kiss her, i wont be able to hang out with her at someones house and not want to hold her, i love her more than anything in the world but that scares her... well im going to go cry like a baby some more on my bed. bye Current Mood: scared (Comment on this)
7:45 am	ahhhhhhh ijust woke ups fucking 745 AM on a sat. and i cant fall asleep again, i cat get thethought out of my head of her and that other kid that i hear is just an asshole and a player and just uses girls all the time. whhy? she said she loved me and sounded so sincere, but if she did, why would she wanna do stuff with another boy when she was with me? al;fkdjaflkasdlfkj i guess im not good enough or something, this really hurts. it wouldnt be so damn difficult if i didnt love her so much. i dont know if i wanna get back together (whichh probly wouldnt happen anyways) or not cuz im gonna find it pretty tough to trust her and its just gonna be hell. but then again, i dont know how im gonna live without her. ahhhhhh i have a headache and wanna puke im gonna go back and lay down. bye Current Mood: would death be better? (Comment on this)
Friday, May 17th, 2002
11:45 pm	wow wow im good, well actually its obvious im not otherwise i would still be with her... im scared... i love her more than i love myself and would literally die for her and knowing that kinda scares me... i dont know whether to be mad or sad or what... i was dishonest and did something i shouldnt have only to find out something i shouldnt have... the sad thing is, it didnt surprise me a whole lot cuz i kinda thought something was different. well i wish i could say im happy with just being friend (dont get me wrong, she means the world to me and would die without her, literally...:() but the fact that i love her so much doesnt really help me get thru this... its only been a few hours. i want to get out of my house and lay in the grass and just stare at the stars and hold her and talk with her. ahhhhhh. well at least i got one last kiss... im gonna go for a drive. to you know who, i love you with all of my heart, and remember that forever.... Current Mood: depressed (Comment on this)